Grow Up

Do you ever return to old writings of your own to be inspired? I find myself revisiting journal entries of the 18 year old version of myself just to try and remember where my vigor came from. I had a love for writing... a desire to study Scripture past what was obvious. I freely acknowledged my Father and gave Him thanks for things I now take for granted.

My prayer is that I didn't decline as I so often think... but instead, that my relationship with my Lord has grown beyond words and how "good" I can make myself sound on paper.

He is molding this heart of mine and His grace is indescribable. He's willing to teach and guide even when my heart is prone to wander. I don't deserve a Love to be forever faithful to me... but the amazing thing about Jesus is that His love is not based on what I deserve.

Tonight, with striking clarity, He said, "Daughter of Mine, I want you to GROW UP. Stop chasing those things that you chased in your youth. Pursue Me... hunger for righteousness!" Yet, another lesson from my blessed Savior to hear and practice. It's not an easy thing to hear the words, "grow up". I'm still trying to figure out what all that entails. What I do know is that there is not time to waste. Being a faithful disciple of Christ is not "part time".

"As a result, we are no longer to be children, tossed here and there by waves and carried about by every wind of doctrine, by the trickery of men, by craftiness in deceitful scheming; but speaking the truth in love, we are to grow up in all aspects into Him who is the head, even Christ..." -Eph. 4:14-15

A lot to pray and think about this week.